And I realized a trend in my life is that I can let my passion get the best of me.
There are some of us out there who go hard or not at all. I’m the type that goes all in all the time when I want something. This means research, analysis, trial and error and rinse and repeat until I get what I want.
I’m so pig headed in that way.
It sounds cocky but when you’ve spent your whole life working hard at things and then achieving them a silly thing starts to happen: you believe you earn what you worked for.
I’m realizing that’s not always the case. Sometimes you work hard, you do it all right, even the timing works and the stars are aligned and you still don’t get what you want.
I guess what I’m saying is:
I need to learn humility. I need to understand I’m not entitled to things just because I’m an overachiever.
I’m trying to learn how to live with humility. This is so strange to me because it seems I can never hit the right balance in life. Either I’m way too self deprecating/destructive or I’m bursting with self confidence/esteem. There has never been a middle ground for me. So that’s the tricky part for me at least.
Time to figure out how to live my life as a content person who has healthy goals/boundaries/habits/relationships/etc. and who doesn’t feel like a braggart for having achieved those things.
I guess I need to remember the low moments. Never forget the dark times and stay haunted by the eternal potentiality of negative outcomes. Maybe if I keep these in mind I can use them as an antidote whenever I’m feeling a little too sure of myself.
*artificially turns dumb image into a meme*
*posts death grips edit of meme*
*posts evangelion edit of meme*
*posts vaporwave edit of meme*
*posts loss.jpg edit of meme*
*posts feels guy edit of meme*
*posts feels good man frog edit of meme*
*posts edit of meme incorporating own web brand*
Wow I’m Laughing So Hard Right Now LOL